fondly

It has been quite the week - non stop really. 
Last Sunday, birthday party, working 6 days all week, meeting up with old friends, family showers, Not to mention watching a 7 year old, and trying to keep up a good mood... and sadness - my friend's father dying so far before his time.  Friend losing their dog - poor guy :(

This has been quite the year - I wish I could understand people...
what makes them think that when they cheat on their husbands/wives that they will not live to regret it?  What possesses a man to rape his 11 year old daughter? What can people find amusing or entertaining about beating a puppy?  Why are people so stupid that they can't see what they have until it's gone. 

When you hurt someone - it will come back to you.
when you can't accept who you are, and always look to be someone that you "think" you need to be... you lose yourself. 
When you hurt someone who loves you - it isn't forgotten.  It's up to the person you hurt to decide whether they want to be forgiving - and if they are? ACCEPT it.  Don't be a dick. Life is to frigging short to be an asshole.

So bearing this in mind, a song comes to mind...



Baby, I see this world has made you sad
Some people can be bad
The things they do, the things they say
But baby, I'll wipe away those bitter tears
I'll chase away those restless fears
that turn your blue skies into grey


Why Worry
there should be laughter after pain
there should be sunshine after rain
these things have always been the same
so why worry now?
Why worry now?


Baby, when I get down I turn to you
and you make sense of what I do
I know it isn't hard to say
But baby, just when this world seems mean and cold
our love comes shining red and gold
and all the rest is by the way


So why worry
there should be laughter after pain
there should be sunshine after rain
these things have always been the same
so why worry now?
why worry now?

The missing doesn't stop.  Losing someone whether by death or just plain old stupidity is the same feeling.  Complete emptiness and utter sadness.  you can fill it with alcohol, food, sex or drugs... but it doesn't work.  Wish I could help.