oh yes.

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Fresh from my visit to the lovely emerald city (stolen from James)  - I had a perfectly lovely time - beautiful drive out there, and meeting up with Kim and Nadine for a few Margaritas at Zebbs... the perfect beginning... then followed by a night of cranberry margaritas (ohhh so yummy) with Kate, Lisa and Mary looking at purses and such? Lovely. 

The fact that these women are my ex's family and friends still stun me - although it makes me so glad that I have them in my life... they bring a very rounded aspect to my existence, and they have taught me that patience can occasionally carry the day - not to mention a few hours of hysterical laughter...

Then a night in a hotel, followed by a great breakfast with a relatively new friend, Mitzie - It's funny how much we have in common, this lady and I.

I also got to hear about how I had been lied to for the first few months of my relationship with James.  Now, tell me - when someone says "I didn't sleep with anyone else while I was with you" you would tend to take that as face value, correct?  Guess I should have asked, "and how long was that in your mind?" Finding out that he lied? Yes, well... somehow doesn't surprise me.  Hurts me, yes.  Breaks another piece of my heart, yes.  Surprises me... no. 

So it comes down to this part... I miss this person, although I don't know about having a relationship with him ever again with a modicum of trust.  So friends, I can handle.  I don't know if he can.  I've tried to reach him, to figure out if I really do miss him, or if it is a reaction to everything else in my life.  I'll keep trying, and at some point, I'll get to ask him about all this - maybe.  I have a few things to tell him anyway, not that they will matter, but they weigh on my soul. 


Ah.  My heart hurts.

How about a little Green Day:

Another turning point;
A fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
Directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test and don't ask why.
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
And dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
It was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So make the best of this task and don't ask why.
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.